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Format: Paperback

Size: 229mm x 152mm

Pages: 104

Release Date: November 2023

Price: £8.99

ISBN: 9781915046673


In a tale of grief, loss, and rediscovery, Felix finds himself immersed in a tumultuous journey of the mind and soul. Haunted by his wife's death, he seeks solace as a volunteer at a charitable trust housed within a converted psychiatric hospital. As Felix grapples with his own demons and struggles with insomnia, his return to the old grounds of the hospital becomes a pivotal moment in his life.

Reconnecting with his old friend Angus, Felix finds unexpected support and understanding. Together, they embark on a mission to fix a broken gutter, a seemingly trivial task that holds deeper significance. Amidst their labour, a peculiar encounter with a frog leaves Felix questioning the boundaries of reality. As Felix opens up about his anguish and dwindling faith, Angus lends a sympathetic ear, acknowledging the weight of Felix's shipwrecked existence.

In the serenity of the garden, the two men engage in a poignant conversation. Felix, once a devoted vicar, now grapples with the unanswerable questions of a loving God in the face of immense suffering. As their dialogue unfolds, Felix confronts his faltering belief, uncertain if God is absent, indifferent, or simply concealed.

In this heartfelt narrative, Felix's journey towards self-discovery intertwines with themes of faith, resilience, and the search for meaning. Will Felix find solace and renewal in his voyage through the depths of grief, or will he be forever adrift, seeking answers in a world fraught with uncertainties?


Jeremy Marshall was the former CEO of the UK’s oldest private bank, C. Hoare & Co. He died in 2023 after a decade-long battle with cancer. During his final years he dedicated his life to sharing the Bible and explaining the Christian faith.

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